Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Taking It Back

I'm on the mend, slowly feeling the release of pressure and pain in my jaw, eyes and forehead. This time, the sinus infection hit me hard and hit me fast. I saw the doctor yesterday and about cried when he was tapping my cheekbones. He gave me quite possibly the biggest pills ever made and said I should be "back to normal" by tonight. I laughed, as I'm not even sure what normal really is anymore!

I've been toying around the last two weeks with doing something "drastic" about my health, knowing that the (more than a) few pounds I've gained since my local C*rves closed and Li'l Empress came home has been really hard on my body. Add to that the increased pressure and pace of raising now 5 kids and the decreased rest and down time, and it's no wonder I've been sick so often this winter. I'm tired of it and have decided to do something about it.

So today, while The Boss watched Li'l Empress and worked from home, I took myself off to my local W*ight W*tchers. I re-joined. It's been a long time coming, and I know that I need that extra level of accountability and "push" from others in the same journey. It's helpful that the Lord blessed us with an unexpected bit of finances. That goes a long way toward making me feel less guilty about needing to spend money to lose weight. And it's also helpful that I have several walking DVD's and CD's, plus some great tools and resources from my earlier years in the program. I don't have to spend that again.

When I first moved here, my membership in WW transferred without a hitch; and I had a built-in community of support and help. But as finances got tighter and the adoption loomed closer and closer, the decision to quit had to be considered. I was only 1/2 way to my goal weight and working out regularly at my local C*rves. I thought I could handle the freedom and "do the program" at home on my own. And I did okay, while I was still using the weigh-in options at C*rves. But with the big adjustments and different focus that we've been called to in the first 6-8 months of settling in with Li'l Empress, I got totally off track. I lost my focus and my health has suffered for it.

So today. I'm getting back on track. I'm honing my focus. I have a 10% goal to achieve and I'm moving myself forward. I'm doing this to feel better. I'm doing this to keep up with my kids. I'm taking my health back. And it feels really good.


Elissa said...

So proud of you! I've gained more than a few lbs since coming home from China and I need to follow your lead. Keep us posted so we can encourage you!

Amy said...

Good for you! No matter what type of fitness level you're at--having the support of others makes all the difference.

Promises Fulfilled said...

That is wonderful! It is so important that we take care of ourselves - I have just been reading about that in a book. We need to take care of ourselves for our own health reasons and also for our family! I am so proud of you! I have a new accountability partner to help me in the exercising and losing weight are too! Hooray for us! :)

Anonymous said...


i am working on WW also lets keep each other posted and let me know how you do
pray for me and i will for you
Aunt Ga

Salzwedel Family said...

I was very successful in the past with WW. Congrats on taking this step - you may have just inspired me to go back too.

Mervy said...


Our Journey to Rachel said...

Hi Tracy:
How are you? It's funny you posted about wanting to lose weight because I'm in the same boat. I totally feel my health deteriorating every day and I want to be around for a long time. I also decided to do a weigh loss program, but I'm going with Medifast which is a food program my chiropractor suggested. I'm going to try it for a montha and see what happens. If I don't like it, than I'm going back to WW. I wish you lots of success and please, you can always call upon me for support.

You know we keep saying w'er going to get together, but our busy lives have preoccupied us. Maybe now that the weather is getting nicer we can get together. I seriosly do need to get my carrier and tub! LOL!

I hope you and your family are well. I enjoy reading your posts from time to time. Lil' Empress is getting so big! And yes, Rachel is finally getting hair! Still can't but a barrette in it, but we're getting close.

Can you believe we are coming up on one year from Rachel's gotcha day? Hard to believe. On one hand it feels like she' been with us forever and on the other hand, I can't believe it's been almost a whole year!

Sherry Crist

Kimberly said...

What a great decision to make. I can relate to the weight gain myself. A TOTAL downer, especially since I lost a bit in China and while I was on maternity leave. It's so hard to fell rotten and keep up with kids, husband, home, and everything else. I'm pulling for you too!!

TCKK said...

Good for you!!! I need to do the same!

heidi @ ggip said...

Good luck with the WW program. :)