I have this button that came with a cute Mother's Day card from Baby BlueEyes a few years ago. I wore the button that day, but after that I felt kinda silly wearing it. For a variety of reasons. Reasons I'm sure most of my fellow mommas would understand.
It kinda felt "braggy."
It kinda felt like too much pressure.
It definitely didn't match most of my spring clothes.
Ya know, important stuff like that.
Last month, I cleaned out the van. I found the button in the bottom of our "catch-all" basket. Our catch-all basket is full of lollipops for long car trips (to ward off motion sickness and provide good behavior incentive for long shopping trips) and empty bags for trash. Oh, and a couple small car treats for Momma - for those days on the run when I'm anything BUT a stay-at-home momma.
There in the bottom of the basket was this button. I pinned it on my sun visor. And smiled.
Li'l Empress noticed it RIGHT.AWAY. when I picked her up from school later that morning. She read it out loud, all by herself. And has, every single day since then. (She's very, very big on her little rituals like this one.)
Yesterday, the conversation took a twist.
Li'l Empress: "Mommy, that button says '#1 Mom,' right?"
"Yup. It does."
Li'l E: "So, YOU! are the NUMBER! ONE! Momma for us, right?"
"Yup. I'm the number one Mommy, just for you. And for Shaggy. And for Dr. D. And LadyBug, and Baby BlueEyes, too."
Li'l E: "And for Mei Mei! Don't forget Mei Mei!"
Momma: "I didn't forget Mei Mei. I never forget about Mei Mei."
Li'l E, more quietly and almost hesitantly: "Mommy?"
"Yes, Li'l E?" - here it comes. This is new to the conversation... I feel myself getting ready to verbally tip-toe.
"Am I the number one Li'l Empress?"
Phew. That's easy. No tip-toeing necessary for this twist! "YES, Li'l Empress! Yes, you are our Number One Li'l Empress forever and ever!"
Very confidently and with a contented (think purring kitty) kind of smile at me in the rear-view mirror she said, "Oh, good. I am the Number One Li'l Empress."
(Heh. Written out that way, it sounds kinda funny. Like the stories of Ancient Chinese History and the Dowager Mother. Heh.....)
Quietly, almost in a whisper, she said, "And soon Mei Mei will be our Number One Mei Mei."
Sigh. Melt. My. Heart. I love this kid.